I can't play anymore games. I am sick of it. They're not fun when you're sad. They get less fun every day. I can't tell if I am a bad communicator or if other people don't want to hear this. My close friends are leaving me unanswered. But is it just a coincidental busy-ness or is it me? I can't tell. I literally can't tell. I am so far away from a standard that I don't know how to measure anything right now. I don’t know how to answer or approach anything. I know that when it's just in my head, it isn't supposed to be a big deal. They say that if it's in your head it can't really hurt you but I'm not sure. I am feeling some pain here.