She worries too much
While I have never wanted
and could choose any path from the onset
limited only by my own ken
and then some
Because she worries too much
My family's bonds are still strong and
my dad might actually live long
my aunt is happy now at all
while my grandparents see often their grandson
But she worries too much
So she has to do everything for her
while she still does everything for us
if you try to give help then it’s messed up
cause you're doing it wrong
Since she worries so much
she's too capable at anything
and too incapable of relaxing
she's managed to give almost everything
but it’s never enough
My mama worries too much
so if it means letting go of a few things
and coming back home in the evenings
to soften a few of her grievings
at my own growing up
I don't think that's too much
I can shave so she sees my bare face
let her feel close to that which her life's made
Not insist that a man's in a child's place
Stop and feel like a son
If it means that maybe for today
She won't worry so much
~
I've spent my whole life emotionally distancing myself from my mom's love,
as children do,
because I don't think any person has ever existed who deserves to be loved as much as she loves me.
it paralyzes me just to try and comprehend it.
I hope that if I ever have children, they receive just a FRACTION of the love that woman has for me.
It would be more than enough.
Happy birthday mama