It's impossible for me to be myself unless I'm with someone
It's impossible for me to be myself unless I'm alone
I am the Schrodinger's cat of personalities
And I can never open the box on my own
I'm sorry for using you like a vanity mirror
I'm just bouncing my reflection off your eyes
I am manipulating your face into a smile
I am hoping confusion and a laugh will make a child
A fresh start
A brand new me into flesh art
I'm sorry
For using authentic conversation like a station
And a stop
For old me's to pack their bags and then get off
I know you thought this was just coffee but it's not
You are inhabited by Delphi
You're my muse
I am using you to channel from myself to something new
Your reactions are like dials on an old transistor too
Let me mix surprise and a fondness with a bit of off putting despondence and once I see the picture clearly I'll come through
Like a poltergeist
Like the demon post possess
Dear God, come in, I've had another one be blessed
Now it's time to commune with the me I am best
Séance says I...C...U
It's an emergency room test
Performance facial surgery with an audience no less
In your raised eyes a rhinoplasty in disguise
And cheek augmentations bracing political conversations
As ideologies well espoused are otoplasties on the house
We're growing closer by the minute with the mentoplasty on my chin and
As we're coming to the finish of this wholesome rhytidectomy
You might be blissed and unaware of this wholly new trajectory
Where in the span of this short hour I've rebuilt myself entirely
And I know what you're thinking
What does any of this have to do with me?
But you see sometimes it's easier to believe in others than myself
So if I can build a better person and confirm them in good health
By putting on a show you call it acting I call it help
If I can be in your eyes the very person you believe in
Then maybe just maybe one day I'll actually be them